Yeah, so where to begin?
If It’s Truly For You
I guess we’ll start from the last time I made an update. Last March, I lost a decent job and got immediately hired for a better one. I was actually promoted from an assistant teacher to a Grade 1 adviser. I handled my first class, and it was a lot of fun. The owner really sees something in me, and I appreciate it. I love my job because of how much this place is treating me. I am an asset and it feels awesome. But, something else came knocking.
A random text greets me one day. It was an assistant teacher job abroad. Since I became a teacher, I always wanted to work outside the country. I am actually reflecting at my career and I always turn down stable jobs because I always feel like I am supposed to work in another country. It was my dream goal, since I realized I wanted to be a teacher. Unfortunately, fate isn’t as kind. I tried applying for teaching jobs outside the country countless times and I always bomb it. It was a higher force telling me I am not ready to leave the country. Given my awful experience outside my province, I kinda realize transitioning to a place definitely outside my comfort zone will crush me. It hurts deep down, but I know I should put this dream inside my drawers and leave it alone. But, this text message came inviting me for an interview.
I’ve had these before and I bomb three or so of these. I am just unlucky at these things. I realized I’m in a good job and this last rejection would definitely be proof that I am not meant to leave the country. At twenty nine years old, I’ve grown to accept it. It’s not meant for me. Luckily, the interview is on a Sunday so I decided to go there ready for the definitive rejection. I actually came there at 10 AM and there were fifty or so people being interviewed. The interview ran for hours until it was already 5 PM. I let out a deep sigh just to confirm that, yeah, this really isn’t for me. A bunch of people already left that this point, and the interview was still going. Eight o’ clock and there were still ten or so people left. I wanted to go home as well, since this is really just a big waste of time. The interviewer even invited all of us together and did the interview in one room. It was a joke. I didn’t care at that point, but as a completionist, I just wanted to see this through. The interviewer just asked things already in our CV, so it was really just stupid. This was the last big sign that I was truly not ready to work abroad.
Then I got a call: Go have a medical because you are now hired.
It was a mass hiring and it was an urgent hiring, and the timing couldn’t be better. My dream of ten years is finally about to be realized. I couldn’t believe it. I got the job. It was surreal, but there was a problem. I am under contract on a school I really love. So this higher power made me choose: your dream or your current career. I wrestled with this choice for a week, even asking numerous people for advice. They all gave one answer: go abroad. They know this is a once in a life time chance, and I would be stupid not to go for it. The problem now is how to leave my current school. Eh, long story short, it was brutal. I made up an emergency that demanded me to go back to my province, but the owner wouldn’t let me go. The supervisors actually told me that competent people like me rarely enter their doors and the owner doesn’t want to let me go. She threatened me a bunch of times. She said she’ll sue me, she said I have to pay her for the breach of contract and she wanted to have my license so she can personally revoke it. Once again, I turn for advice. I even asked a lawyer friend to help me. He agreed to represent me should things ever turn awful. I gave up my license in the end, which is symbolic like she still owns me as a teacher or something. I immediately reported it stolen and got a new license, but not before I was bawling in tears trying to look as pathetic just so I can squirm out of my contract. I’m not sure if she successfully revoked it, but I’ll find that out in three years after I renew my license.
This was the most stressful moment in my life, because I knew deep down what I was doing was wrong. I’m an honest person. I kinda proud myself at being one, so I still feel like sh*t after going through all this. I am very blessed to have supportive people around me though. I am kinda proud of that. I have friends that understands me, siblings that are ready to back me up and a lawyer friend that is as honest of a person as me. He walked me through this hail storm of sh*t and I am really luckily to have met these awesome people. I am currently waiting for my flight but my bags are packed and I’ll be leaving soon.
Yeah, I’m leaving a place with a good support system to visit a place that I have no one with me. Why is this my dream again? But, yeah, life update over and now let’s talk pantsless. I will not bring my laptop with me and I am not sure when I’ll be blogging again. This is a big transition for me. I’m not even sure if I’ll come out alive after all this. I only have my phone, and I guess I can blog with it but I definitely can’t do reviews. This is basically me going on a really big hiatus. I’m sure my readers are used to that though. My first goal upon entering the country though would be to get a stable internet connection, buy a laptop and continue TPAB’s journey. My second goal is to buy shoes, because I’ve worn out my old one but I’ll be wearing that outside the country.
While I Wait
The tentative date for my flight already passed, so I’m really just at home twiddling my thumb doing nothing. The employer told me there was some problem with the flight stuff and I should just sit still. It’s agonizing waking up only to realize you’re still waiting for your dreams to start rolling. It’s super agonizing.
To save my sanity, I figured I’ll tackle this project I was supposed to do a few years back. I used to host this writing carnival called Create A Story tag. It’s supposed to feature the ani-blogging landscape of 2018. I was supposed to compile and review the works. I plan on doing that now, so here goes nothing.
Oh, I also passed eight years of blogging and I didn’t really plan anything. I was mentally not in the mood.
So, how about a Q and A? Leave your questions below.
Thank you for eight years of support!
Congrats on 8 years, and best of luck with the life changes!
You just never know where you’ll end up next, that’s how it works.
yeah, life has it moments for sure xD
gl tp. Which country are you teaching in. It’s a shame that your situation with your previous employment ended like that. Shows just how much they wanted you to stay. But it’s a new stage in your life, hope it goes well for you.
yeah, very little things in life don’t have a cost. I learned that the hard way.
and I’ll be going to them middle east.
Eight years of blogging is impressive. You have even gone beyond the moniker of “old timer”. You’re practically an immortal in the blogging world.
there are older bloggers. some just hide their age
Senpai!! Congratz on your 8 years!!! Wow, I didn’t expect a school head can revoke once license just because they don’t want you to leave. That’s my first time hearing something like that.
I’m a bit sad that you are leaving to another country, cuz that means it might take a long time (or never) before I could meet you.
Still, I am very happy for you and I will continue to support you. 🙂
Though, I am curious, which country are you teaching in?? I also have plans on going abroad, but I wouldn’t be able to reach that goal so soon.
A Q and A would be nice.
My question would be…
If you plan to go on hiatus, what would be the tentative date that you think you would come back to blogging???
Senpai, thank you for everything. I hope everything goes well with you. And if ever you need someone to talk to, my messenger and DM are available hahahahahaha. 😅😅😅
Goodluck and God Bless on your trip!!
I’m pretty sure she just wanted to scare me, since the lawyer also explained that she can’t really do that. I did kinda smirk a bit when she name dropped someone from deped assuring me my license will be revoked.
and yeah, lol, I just want to see what life has in store for me outside the PH but I’ll definitely comeback and you can help me navigate the central Vs. haha
I’m going to the middle east. I don’t like it either, but it’s a stepping stone for now.
thank you!!! and I will keep in touch if I can!!!
That figures. Name dropping some from DepEd, Lol. That’s definitely her way of stopping you. Good thing you pushed through. 🙂
Ooohhh Middle east!! I admit, that’s a bit scary. But I am hoping for the best for you!!!
I am going through another chapter in my life too, I’m not yet ready to share it yet hahahahaha…
Need to finalize some stuff first.
natakot din ako nung nag name dropxa, pero my lawyer friend really calmed me down. haha laki ng utang na loob ko sa kanya.
at uu, medyo kinakabahan ako pero dami ko ng napuntahang work feeling ko tlga biyaya n ni lord to. sabi nya ready n ako hahaha
anu n b bbalita sau? nagamit mo nmn licensya mo?
I am planning on using my license…if ever may job offer ako. I am actively looking for it hehehehe
meron yan. hanap lng. the first step is always tricky pero it gets easier after 🙂
praying for ur success will!
Congrats to you, despite the problems with your previous employer!
Um… okay, question, question. Hmmm, okay, got one:
What anime meme is your favorite?
thank you. i’m not a confrontative person, so it was really the first time I knew I was in the wrong and someone just keeps pelting stuff at me haha
It’s fine, the hard part is always getting the license. Anything after that (like renewals and stuff) is a money matter really (xD)
That and, speaking from experience, other countries might not even acknowledge someone’s professional license — though I guess it depends on where you’re headed exactly. Keep us posted man. I wish you all the best, and I (and probably everyone here) hope to hear from you again soon.
And I guess for your Q&A:
Is there a review that you regret making? If so, why?
yeah, I know my license won’t do me good abroad but I just kinda want it because it’s my proof I was a practicing professional in my country. hahaha
and thank you for the question! naiistress ako kasi alam ko ma cuculture shock at home sick ako, pero alam ko may mas mahihirapan sa akin so un lng pang comfort ko sa sarili ko haha
you have your actual work experience!
I know, my first year outside the country was rough (xD) but it does pass, baka mas mabilis ka pang naka-adjust kaysa sakin, haha!
first tym ko ulit sa manila umiyak ako tapos ang haharsh ng mga katrabaho ko. grabe tlga. pretty sure gaung exp ulit.
umiyak k dn b? na miss mo si doggie? xD
Good luck!! This is exciting. I look forward to your Pantless Abroad blogging!
thanks! I’m a mix of excited and terrified right now, haha.
Why did you choose to start anime blogging?
I would say no matter what experience you’ll have overseas, this will be something you’re not gonna regret. Keep on going dude.
Also, you don’t have to feel that obligated to keep this blog going while you’re busy there. I’m just happy you can update about what’s going on and stuff. So many blog just have it’s activity killed without any warning whatsover, even though i know they’re probably busy in real life but it still feels…..empty when it happened
and yeah, i’ll try my best to still keep this sitegoing somehow.
Yey. Good for you. Follow your dream.
Just one question: I’ve lost contact with you via messenger on FB for a whole year. Have you changed to a different account or was it just your decision not to answer any PMs. Just curious ya know.